the 30th year

not really sure how to begin here. as always, pardon my lack of grammer and even the upper/lower cases. having a journal allows me to reflect and recall while i am writing it. hence, i should be continuing doing it.

it was a tough ride into the year 2011. never imagined such thing will happen on me. it was bad but not too bad. however it did surprise me alittle with the way I took it and handled it. it just seems that i managed to work the adversities towards my advantage. And through this, i realised how scary perceptions can be. but i know, it would be real difficult to influence mine. call me stubborn or whatever it is unless you are goin to be responsible for whatever outcome that's gonna befall on me. am pretty glad this incident didn't break me but made me and others stronger. things happened, feelings changed, and unfortunately, they wouldn;t be the same anymore. but this is the harshness of life we gotta face.

about a week before my reservist. i fainted in the early morning again. this is probably the 7th or 8th time. in my room, i kicked almost everything thats on the floor and toppled those that are above waist level. the chair fell over and i knocked into my left jaw and the rear right side of my head. unconsciousness won't give you any pain. it comes after. during that duration, i kept hearing my mum calling my name. it felt nice. strange but even this incident made me look at things differently. relating it to the earlier incident and even to our daily lives. nothing really matters more. love is all i've got to lose. love transcend everything else. i wanted quite badly to feel the same with my friends over the passed year or so.

this year is an important year for the kh. we are gonna make biro and massiveoutfit like never before. the passion i lost 2 years ago is back and this time its helping me determined to set things right and get them rolling.
 
serving my 4th and longest reservist this year too. met up some old friends and spending more time to myself apart from work is a good thing. next would be ben's wedding.

i like the me that waves at girls, having a big laugh and simply doing things that i've never did.