hmm, this year hasn't been exactly amazing so far. but it was wonderful till date. I had a strong resolution. one of which was influenced by my closest of friends, my bro and esp my mum. i went for a church service some time back. it was a relationship seminar cum an hr of service(which i was unaware of). it speaks of how important relationships are to human beings and how it evolves with mankind. To me, its breaking up the complications and presenting in a unseen perspective which i find rather intriguing. some of the speaker words were deeply engraved into myself and top of it all, what i have experienced from the moment i stepped into the convention hall, made me look at myself more in detailed again. i am a person whom is not engaged, zero excitement, speaks little when with group of friends, hardly share my thoughts, conserved, hardly smile and seemingly lack of drive to be happy. Lastly, which is most important - a person whom is different from his earlier years. yes, my mum said it. alot goes through my head when such sensitive topic to spelled out to me. hence..
i want a change. not totally. but subtly, gradually and preferably. i wanna experience happy like how i did in the passed, i.e, when i was younger. its a fundamental concoction in the brain that dealt with the approach towards life basically. over the weeks, i summarized my resolution to these - give, do good and genuinely smile more. just acting as a reminder for myself, i shall not go on to elaborate this process.
the festive season has been good to me. made me do the things i wanna, and trying to be a better person.
