偶発性 - experiences

been an exciting august and september so far. some of the things that i never thought i would go through and certain moves that i would make. it was in a way.....fresh for me. The experience of it once was good enough for me to log it down to my life experiences.

There are some experiences i wanted to pen down when i felt it first time; not wanting to wait till it becomes too regular and overly familiar that i start forgetting that feeling of experiencing something new. it is true that sometimes circumstances led and forces us to change. i do enjoy the change. is it an effort too to get off that already too comfortable seat and try something different.

talking to people, working with people, helping people and getting help from people. the few essentials in the phase now.

there's a couple of things that i been through and tried recently. They have helped by giving me a different perspective of life. It is not exactly true until you've been through it. I am glad to the kind peeps that i have bumped into.

i need a holiday.

17,18,19

It was overall a fun weekend. Had this BBQ on 17, one of multi-nationality and multi-professions. There were the usual BBQ stuff, packet food and tonnes of booze. We started chatting in various clutters, mostly hitting off with "what do you do?" and "where are you from?" questions. To me, everyone seem to have a unique and interesting character. Gradually, we started playing drinking games. One friend introduces a japanese game which was nothing like those that i have played with my other drinking mates. Basically, its counting from 1- 10 where at 8 and 10 we will have to say "たこはち" and "いかじゅう" respectively.

With the help of the booze, the atmosphere lighten up and everyone slowly seem to be at ease with everyone else gradually. Jazz and Hip-hop music along with our laughter filled the air throughout the night. It wasn't just another BBQ, everyone doesn't exactly know everyone else and we still manage to have fun together. There were retailers, dance instructor, accountant, financier, etc, but in a way every person was just themselves at that very moment; nothing pretentious, just real.

18. Had only 4hrs of sleep from the previous night. Played soccer, read the saturday papers, afternoon walk in orchard, ramen/pork cutlet rice, karaoke, drinks @ no.5.

19. Woken by the kids at my house. Put on my england jersey, had breakfast and left for work. While at work, ほんとにつまらない.

同名男子

逃離那個逼人說謊的城市 我遇見一位同名的男子 再寂寞容易無限擴張的夜裡 我們交換了心情和故事 他有那種令人溫暖的誠實 臉上是真心快樂的樣子 他鼓勵我要敢愛敢恨做自己 活在別人眼中是留給傻瓜做的事 人要灑脫過日子 一個同名男子讓我羨慕 他有我希望的自由和幸福 其實什麼真的值得在乎 什麼樣的生活算豐富 有個相愛的人 有顆自在　的心就知足 一個同名男子讓我想哭 他讓我覺得我把自己辜負 我正想轉過頭對他說 我要走你走的那條路 夜色迷迷茫茫 他已不知去處

Botanical Garden

We finally made it.

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大嬾堂

Been kinda lazy these days...so lazy to reply emails, to return sms....to think of wat to talk about, to clear my mailbox, to work on my business plan, to clean up my harddrive, to find out my lost password for internet banking, to go to a axs to pay for my insurance, to go call freakin m1 to redeem my sunperks points, to get my bike fixed, to take a walk down orchard on my only off day, to start one of the few new games on my dusty console, to befriend more people, to f*** that ass who is taking ages to do his task, to do some research work, to browse the new fashion mags still in their wraps, to spend time with family, to listen attentively, to speak properly, to express myself sufficiently, lazy to be lazy.

packed saturday...

its was xx big day today and and glad to be on the invite list. Its my first experience of a church wedding. The couple were cool and really look good together, happy for them. I didn't eat much thou the food catered for the guests looked really good. Woke up at 630am, had a long day, and just didn't feel like eating + probably the crowd. Had ramen and some drinks in town area after the event. Don't know why, but the drinks never felt enough today.

2 days ago, I had a pleasant dream. A dream dream. It took place during the day where it felt really cool. i was in a fto driving amidst the low bungalows and detached houses on the two sides of the road, beside me is a girl(supermodel or some-sort) planting a long kiss on my my cheek as i drive her to her suzuki....then strangely, later on she sped off in her suzuki and i went around looking for her....Then jump into a scene where i was playing mahjong with my parents and fw at our lift lobby(well blocking the pathway to the corridor). fw or better known as f, then game the round and suddenly squat to the floor with a bad tummy ache. I then hurried to help her back my place....end of dream..it was weird, but it felt really nice.

either you or not you is a f***ed up friend.

What can i do on a saturday?

Met up with the guys last night at foohouse. I was an hour plus late. Been awhile since we last met, was enjoying the chit-chat despite myself keeping the most quiet. The talks were about cars, houses, investments and work. Was too tired to channel myself into same frequency, hence just listening. Had only a glass of whisky, then an early night home. I thought I might as well rest early which i have not done so in a long time. 2pm and i was in dreamland.

9am, rushed off to soccer. Discovered today that my ankle injury from last session has not fully recovered yet. Went on and play anyway. Collected stuff from anglican high, back home for lunch, read the papers, surf net, lay on my bed, surf net, chat, back on my bed, chat, net, blog....Feel like going for a drink, but just when the thought of going out comes, the rain starts pouring. Wondered if i should go IT fair, check out the largest harddisks, the wireless routers, singtel promotions etc...nah, laaaaaazzzyyy..see how it goes in another hours time or so.

There is suppose to a big match tonight between manchester united and liverpool, its probably something good for me to kill time, since i have got much plans yet for the night. However, I discontinued the sports channel when becks moved to mls. A friend once commented that why the "celebs" i like are mostly guys, e.g. I prefer becks to maria sarapova and andy lau to any-well-known-female-singers. Rest assure i am not gay or anything near there. I do notice girls as much as any other ordinary guy out there. I am also disgusted with the idea of me holding another guy's hands.

Looks like the rain is going stop, now back to thinking what the f*** should I do later...

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Been back from work 3 hours ago. Had dinner, watched tv. Now, at my com not knowing what to do for the next 2 hrs or so before i hit the sacks. Everyday, every week seems to pass very quickly.....for me and its seems the same for the people around me. Am just wondering while the time is ticking....am i really moving forward? Am i just having too much free time to think of the unnecessary again? Bt what if its not unnecessary? What if these 2 hrs of free time is extremely important? I shouldn't be missing it out right?

This is perhaps the best way for me to discuss the thoughts with myself....the best way to jot down what i am thinking at certain point of the day of the week of the month of the year of my life. I do the same repetitive activities every single day. work/waste time/play/sleep/work/waste time/play/sleep/on and on and on....

I am thinking what to do next after i have finish typing this post. I have been terrible. I know it myself. Terrible in many aspects. Anyway, what will this post remind me of? Probably just how i wasted 10mins of the first 2 hours of 12h march09. this is senseless.

0311/0622 - breaking thru' the night

Today I become uncle to another niece. Its something many have been looking forward to. Different people different feelings and expectations. Was happy and excited and now just glad that the day finally arrives. :)

小时候的夢想，的畫面。

昨天我在出門的途上，想起了我小时候怎麼看這个世界，想起了對我長大後的生活有什麼样的期待与渴望。如果有一天，這些夢想慢慢的被遺忘或者还沒實現生命就到了尽頭。 是否會是一種遺憾？

it was like the usual saturdays about a year ago.

told myself i was going to take it lightly. thou discharged by the physiotherapist officially, she reminded me to rest for another 2 more months or so... I woke up remarkably early for a saturday morning that day.

I spent that morning only to realise the same pain i felt before i had the meniscus repaired. Damn.

Getting back on my feet; the lost designer

Say bye to the long nights of dazing, wondering and staring-into-blank space. For the passed few months, I was so lost. Still lost, but determined to change it from this moment on. Where was I, what was I thinking? Jeezzzeee.

I seriously have forgotten how privileged it felt to be a designer. The freedom to make changes and to simply create. I think I must have lost it when we shifted office last june ('07). Throwing me the shitty task of the managerial/design/sales role; think thats when it all started falling apart? Maybe yes, maybe no. Alright, let go back to zero once more and make a comeback. Leading the simpler life of a sophisticated minded designer. Take it as the passed few months were a holiday at LALA land.

Now, get cracking for my day job (required to pay bills and lead a comfortable life). By the way, the mac didn't cost that much for no reason. Its suppose to make you work for it and to cover that hefty sum of $$$.

星期天

我好想踢球。好想看一部旧電影。 好想回到從前。

When time stood still

So short a lifetime, so many dreams. Till dust they become. History we will be. Bitter sweet memories while they last.

we come a long way....

marked by excessive enthusiasm for and intense devotion to a cause or idea; "rabid isolationist" 

another day

never understood.

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the day after the long friday that feels like saturday

Yesterday was the most fulfilling day since my knee surgery. Travelled to Ubi (check out prints), then to Upper Paya Lebar(collect my flyers) then to Geylang East(check out prints). Fulfilling because it was all packed and planned and executed accordingly. Its also the longest period of time i have spent with my brother on work related issues together. :) 

After the hard work comes miscellaneous and leisure stuff. Went to the packed like 10 cans of sardines in a single can of sardine, sardine Pc show to get "something". To cut it short, we spent  a long 40mins standing at the booth deciding whether to get that "something". There were some funny remakes along the way thou, "how about a free battery rather than a free CF card", "how about a free lens", "he must have told people the wrong info the entire day on the 1st day of the show". Anyway, we decided, got things moving, burnt a big hole and life goes on.....

Around 9.30, head to orchard while my brother went back to studio. Said hi to val at her roadshow and went on to find a place to wait for her. I sat outside heeran's skin couture dropping all my bags and backpack like as though i just finish a 24km road march. After about 15 mins, i went to starbucks, got a seat and having a addictive mocha frap. Ordered a venti do that i can share with val too. Then, i took out my laptop and start surfing for some sites on local steamboat eateries to find out about their closing times, etc. Having a laptop on the go really help kill time when you are just hoping it passes faster. 

11.10pm, i walked back to the roadshow area. Some punk dressed smartly in shirt and shorts with some tattoos over almost gotten into a fight. His age and probably his group of friends probably made him want to rush into some adrenaline feel of hitting/fighting someone. He was persistent at getting at his "opponent", he thinks he is going to be a hero.... Yah right....I can break his limps anytime. Go home and get some self help i was thinking. Anyway, met val and headed to Liang Seah for steamboat. Steamboat is like the most convenient food to prepare and eat in my household. Val loves it too....good thing. 13.90 after 10.30pm, good stuff. I ordered my regular pattern of 2 set of beef and 2 set of pork at a time till the waitress understood what we want when i just call for her. Ate alot for the night and its time to head home. (i wrote in details because for me it was really a fruitful day and its a day to be remembered).

Finally, saturday. Don't feel like doing anything, just feel like dreaming. Dreaming allows you to reach the unreachable and makes you feel like a better person. 

monday blues

I have been alittle crazy these days....i took a long walk home one night when i was supposed to be on crutches with my knee still not fully recovered. It wasn't exactly long but especially tiring as i limped for close to an hour throughout the journey......its not crazy, it just something i wanna do at that moment.....of cos, many factors trigger the "want". Just like some mad fellow suddenly exclaim that he/she wants to conquer the MT. Everest....Its that kind of moment. 

After about close to a month of staying away from distant place other than just neighbourhood coffeeshop and tampines central, I made a trip to town ad to my fav bookstore, borders...It was the stupid moment nonsense again...but i just seemed to be enjoying worsening my injury. I stood for ages in the train and in the bookstore.. went to tangs awhile for i have not been there recently. after my knee finally feel not a part of me anymore, i decided its time to head home....there wasn't any pain, just numbness and soreness....if the meniscus do not heal properly, I very well deserve it! :)

Alright have a great week ahead. goodnight 

So Long Gone...

Here i am back blogging/writing on my blog/utilizing my blog once again. My last blog was close to a year ago already. Been really busy being busy lately. Just a few highlights to note down here: the attempt on publishing of a magazine (it will materialize someday). The struggle of staying with my job and finally quitting it. Setting up a online streetwear store, attended a musical and probably to remember also having my 4th operation on my right knee. 

I watched "What happens in Las Vegas" sometime ago and Cameroon Diaz plays this character that have kinda struggle with her life. Typically, she was fighting for promotion and hoping to climb the ladder ahead of everyone else. Then till some point of the movie when she finally won over her "competitor" and is to be promoted, she exclaimed happily that she could take the job on....then again she was thinking, what on earth is she exactly doing and whether can she do it....To my surprise she gave it up more easily compared to how hard she has fought for it. She said she rather do nothing and be happy. Its just a comment, dialogue written by a scriptwriter but it kept me thinking. What can really make me/you happy? Are we certain that we are going to do this? Is it right and going to turn out good for me/us? To a certain extent, i am glad that i quit my job and am trying to pursue what i have always wanted to do. But on the other hand, there is this competition out there, a real "survival reality thingy" going on out there telling you how sucky and how bad you are faring in the competition. Passion, desire, intelligence....probably we/i need these badly.

Anyway, had a celebration of my dad's birthday yest. It was a usual homey family thingy and it was great. The day was long, the walk was tiring for my knee but worth it. My girl and I have been thinking of baking a cake for the occasion and we really did it! Thanks to her perseverance, determination and constant "pushing". We managed to turn ideologies into actions... We made not one but two Chocolate Raspberry Pavlova by nigella. The reason was simple, the first one wasn't pleasing to the eyes. Is the first time ever we did this and it turned out quite well and am glad that my family likes it. Val, being the perfectionist thinks its too sweet...  :) i was more or less okay with it....probably adjustments can be made when we decide to do it again. 

Attended a play called the "Moonbird" recently, it was a nice, funny and heart warming play wit some of the performers being deaf/mute. While being touched by the enthusiast and zest in life portrayed by the performers, I noted the ugly and hypocrisy in some of val's classmate. The pretenders and fake smiles and stupid lame comments...they are constantly performing day in and out, requiring no rest. Probably its just part of growing up for them. Just hoping that val will meet some true friends and those that will know how to treasure and appreciate friendship someday.

Alright thats all for now.