of time, of feelings and of thoughts...

time is slipping and the clock never seem to stop ticking...fatigue seems to have become a good friend of mine lately and always show up as and when he/she likes. Despite this, i have set my directions straight and clear....and am sincerely looking forward to fulfilling or taking them on. I hope everyone around me share the same feeling about it.

i was flipping through a design book one day and came across a poster design by someone (can't remember who). it was the content of the poster that caught my eye. specifically, the text it bears..... "I love the rest of my life though it is transitory. Like a light azure morning glory."

how meaningful.....goodnight.

Sunday...

strange enough, i feel more at peace today while being at home..... probably its the weather, probably its the song that is playing on my wmp......nashville skyline by dishwella.

Nashville
The capital of Tennessee, in the north-central part of the state northeast of Memphis. Founded in 1779 as Fort Nashborough, it was renamed in 1784 and became the permanent capital in 1843. Nashville is a port of entry and major commercial center known especially for its music industry. Population: 488,374. - dictionary.com

i have always enjoy looking at the nature, the sea, the sky and the greens......even when i drive.....i remember the earlier days when i owned a digital camera, mostly pics of the sky and trees filled up my "memory card" and minimal of human faces and poses etc. its a sunday afteroon, and the dark clouds have just cleared the sky. it is now cooling with occasional birds' chirpings, and breeze gently ruffling the curtains......only thing you want to do is to be with your love one[s].....

first time in my life, for that spilt second..... i wonder about honesty. whether or not it actually pays.....but still no matter how weird or odd this thought might be.....its still extremely important to live with a clear conscience. this is just the way i am brought up.....here, i would like to share with u an article. provoking at times, but the thoughts are still as lovely.

[“No legacy is as rich as honesty”, William Shakespeare quoted, and I totally buy it. This includes the younger days when you managed to steal a mango from your neighbour’s mango tree, probably sneaking through the backyard. Karma is the word, for the perfect description. According to the Indian tradition, it is the principle of a person's actions that have consequences meriting reward or punishment. Typical human nature, I would emphasize, people tend to take things for granted not knowing that they are expecting the worse.

Likewise, for other situations, or rather in every situation, honesty is most appreciated. Living a life with a clear conscience is so much easier than having to lie all the time. You might have denied about your past, for the present situation, be it a wonderful start of a relationship or friendship. However, the beans will spill someday, somewhere, somehow. Having to face the music, eat humble pie, and be able to gain the trust from that so very important person with loads of convincing explanation, it is not going to be easy. As defined, integrity is all about honesty and vice versa. One way to measure integrity and honesty is by being true to our values, soul, commitments and relationships. Relationships; I see it as a very important factor in one’s life, be it with parents, cousins, friends or partner.] - writeup by opportunity

Enjoy your sunday~

the Kingdom of Hearts - YYYYY の物語

At a point of time where I believe no one actually understands me, leaves my mind to wander ….and to lead to this…..it was tough to handle and I felt like screaming it out into their ears…..but I still have to keep my composure…..for that is who and how I am like.

The picture I have painted is close to perfection; at least in my own eyes. The beautiful scenery, the rich blue sky, the greens, the lovely weather, the cool breeze brushing against our neck, and the activities we are doing. It felt nice and blissful. It can happen, it will happen and goes on forever…. (forever is not an appropriate term.. I should probably say “goes on for as long as it can”).

The embracement in the middle of a garden where time seems to stall for me just feels like eternity (alright, just what exactly is eternity…does it exists? Just the longest possible duration I would call it).

The butterfly shall not leave me, its presence is much welcomed and appreciated and loved….Hmm, it might be able to lead me out of my woes and make me smile, but it has the equal capability to bring me to the rock bottom as well. However, it’s all worth it, I would say. For it could be just a rare occurrence which might only take place this one time in my life.

the Kingdom of Hearts II

YYYYY watched, as the two backviews drift further and further into the foggy atmosphere and finally disappear into the woods. These two views has been familiar since the days while he was still in primary school. Not forgetting those were the times where worries and a troubled-mind is almost neglectgible. The people he has met throughout the entire time, the friends he made and the buddies he is having....made him what he is of today......

YYYYY stood there for quite a while trying to re-adjust the feelings in him.....*a phone call that changed his life(an article YYYYY will write in his journal a few days after today) * moving on.... YYYYY arrived at this well maintained garden of purple and red roses.....just above them are a number of butterflies fluttering their wings in a orchestral manner. as he moves towards them to observe, most of them fly further away except one..YYYYY took a good look at the beautiful wings that it bears......of the two conspicously marked wings....the design seems like an alphabet V repeating at both sides. YYYYY can't seem to take his eyes of it......he is in love with the butterfly....

To be continued...

the Kingdom of Hearts..

it all started out at day zero. Dressed in a simple bermuda and clean slim cut - tee, YYYYY set to explore the dense forest that is just 100 meters away from his woody hut. armed with a bottle of evian and a long fallen branch, YYYYY marched towards the vegetation confidently. back home...his proudest belonging is just a piece of printed paper what others usually termed as "certificate" (i.e. a diploma or degree). knowing that he has a dream to pursue, that piece of crap can easily find its place in the bin.....

missing out on loads of stuff..be it good or the bad, YYYYY decided not to let loose of this opportunity so easily. he has been knocked in the head pretty badly once and now everything else seems to have changed except his heart. still as true as ever (only he is aware..)...

The late afternoon sun left the dense vegetation slightly warm and humid.....YYYYY was walking and walking occasionally tilting his head down to look at his footsteps. observing the footprints behind and the spacing between everyone of them........he soon realised those footsteps can nvr be laid in the exact position under the exact circumstances @ an particular time, of his lifetime and, not forgetting the feeling that is in him. there will nvr be a second duplicated one ever......

YYYYY then had this weird feeling in him and as he looks up, his eyes widen....he wanted so much to call out, but the words just seem to have lost their pronounciation, melacholic tune, etc.....nothing came out of his mouth.....

To be continued....

today is friday...

-A designer’s world…
As usual, late I am…..turning on my computer and checking my mails. As my tutor used to put it, the role of a designer of any aspect is a profound thinker. It seems to make some sense as I constantly feel like I am walking around with a empty mind that is just constantly searching for ideas and creative thoughts. A fear that it will someday fail to work this way is something unimaginable, something extremely dreadful.

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You can punch me, you can kick me, you can slam me, you can whack me with a baseball bat…..but only words can hurt me….

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Exuding an aura of worldliness is the special ability. I like the thoughts. I love the written form. Speaking a lot of truth and yet sometimes confuses me a little. Am I seeing things you can’t see or is it simply I am not seeing enough? Know not only what’s best for others….but what’s best for everyone… Love yourself to love others.

a battle...

Ignorance will cause more misery.

I was reprimanded today; the only person that has ability to do that and knock some sense into me is only my mum. She reminded me of something, something which I am failing to see, something which I have often reminded others but not myself.

The usual problems have once again surfaced from deep within and now, clouding my mind. I realized I have been such a coward, drowning my courage, making it a dormant substance that might just reside somewhere in me and never voicing out. I have been avoiding and running and landing myself in a never-ending race that will provide no solace when the end comes. This is a problem; it will link to a chain of more problems if it’s not resolved effectively and sufficiently. The only way to console myself is to make it seem like its part and parcel of life, of learning things and challenges that will occasionally pops up and take you on to increase your “experience points” (a fine line to making that as an excuse). Nevertheless, I feel selfish especially towards the people around me that care. I want to make her smile, make them smile, might be difficult, but I will learn to do it anyhow, I can’t just live for myself.

The misery must be dealt with.