800am, "seika iwa a..."....triggered by the preset alarm, the melodious song starts playing from my motorola clamshell phone. It was a cold cold morning. As usual, I turned it off and bury my face back into the comfy pillows. Next, my bio clock triggers itself. 820am, dragging myself out of bed and to the washroom. After weeks, i finally started using my toner and moisturiser again (worrying the fact that i might just age too quickly with insufficient sleep sometimes).
On the 4-sided polygon table was a plate of fried eggs prepared by my mum. I was looking out to the sky and wondering if my mum has reached her work place safely. i took one of the eggs, sandwiched it with two slices of Gardenia and place them into another 4-sided polygon tupperware.
Next thing that came to my mind was Val, wondering and worried if she has been sleeping well in this cold weather. Am glad for everything so far and even happier for the good news she told me yest. The first step has been taken and i hope all would turn out good for her tomorrow. But, she will bear in mind the "never-say-die" attitude...I know she will...All these months, i have learnt alot and communication plays a big part. Sharing every thought is equally essential for us as well. Once we talked about judgement, she gave me very fresh insight to the way how oftenly, we perceive things only the way we want to perceive it. How could one have known better how to judge somebody when he or she and that somebody do not even know each other in depth. Too easily taking things for granted, we would actually also look at things on the surface at times and neglecting the subtance that is within.
Quite recently, I also have been thinking alot about friends, relationships, etc. Those who might truly understands me may well be only a handful, maybe lesser than one handful. Feelings, emotions and thoughts are often the most complicated thing bundled with.....actually i am not so sure, maybe just bundled with me. Some friends are slowly getting on my nerves. Speaking as though they know me to the core. Sometimes what they say or think about me makes me wonder if i am a changed man without me, myself noticing it. Thats one confusion i am facing.
Jar pointed out the thing about our "having-no-plans" days months back. Instantly I saw myself being in two different position altogther. One from his point of view, one from my own point of view. "having no plans means no last min plans" and "having plans means last min plans will/might take place". Its precisely because of the existence of plans that causes the presense of impromptu last-min-plans. Could it be because all along i ahve been taking the mins hrs and days for granted already? Time was never calculated or examined this way before...
Its the beginning of the year, ad i am already looking forward to this x'mas.......it will be DAMN nice. take care people.
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