here are the pics i failed to upload

this stupid blogspot is quite a pain in the a** sometimes, wanted to hit the sacks early!!! anyway here are the pics supposed to go together with the previous post.

merry xmas to all in advance.....

i am there...somewhere beyond the horizon......

good to have a pool side party~

have a great weekend people~!

yet another week...yet another friday...

hmm, first of all...like to explain that this blog is not updated on a weekly basis....its just that i was really occupied with something else.....i know alot of people miss me writing here...wahahha.....

i don't want to bother u people with some of my thoughts about pain, departure, memories, cries, sadness, "the world eating me up", "people eating me up", etc..... its friday and its meant to be happy~, happening, ......joyous, what else....arhh.....forget it....

it was a tremendous week.....busy busy busy.....since sunday i hardly had any time to do some sport.(oh yah, not that i don't want to...my ankle is still miraculously not back to its full operational form since about one week ago...that was when i use my left leg to kick a reckless taxi away to help save someone..) .... to catch a movie....make an effort to meet with my friends...let alone say to continue my quest in search of the "one"...

oh yah, went to studio on sunday after missing it for 2 weeks due to my sch assignments and such...really miss going there and that day was rather good....esp, till the end when i had to take sk and b.....they really made my day....made my week and month in fact......b never speak so much to me before......sk too.....it was really an enjoyable session......whole studio filled with our voices and laughters......b was describing to me the story of her drawing....while sk was busy trying "memorised" my name.....she gave me all sort of names she can think of but not my actual one.....thomson...zhejie.....gunhao....blah blah....i appreciate her spending the effort....somehow...finally i made them remember my name.....told them i would test them when class ends at 6.....while finishing up on their artwork.....at around 6....sk suddenly ask me what time is it......i told her 6:10.....and she asked me again, "are you going to test us for your name?".....i smiled and both b and sk started to say "your name is genghao...genghao...genghao.....(kept repeating)"....that was really a unexplainable kinda joy.... not trying to exhibit the sensitive side of me here...but it was really a great feeling....some feelings that i probably had not experienced in years.......(there are lots of things which i don't say in the past...and that is not necessarily a wise option)

sk, kh, b

sk, kh, b

ok, so much for the kids.....nothing much about the weekdays...busy...eat...sleep...waste money.....lazy/tired to update blog......busy...eat...sleep...waste money.....lazy/tired to update blog.....busy...eat...sleep...waste money.....lazy/tired to update blog......busy...eat...sleep...waste money.....lazy/tired to update blog........face the computer about 15 hrs a day and i think i need to get a pair of spectacles soon..... haha

just finish helping my friend update photoes on his webbie and to the courtesy of him....i get the permisson to put some of his pictures to share with you all......taken in komodo...bali i supposed.....btw he is a diver/avid photographer.....stunning pics of his trips he will show you.....

blinkblinkblink and its friday.

My BNP is on tv again…… reckoned that she might be probably talking about sports this time as I see images of tiger woods….Zinedine Zidane (now if you know why I use caps for zz and not for tw) on the screen. Wasn’t listening to her at all as my earphones were on and I was listening to the familiar tracks of Rip Slyme-masterpiece/tasogare surround……DJ Krush-Pendulum and Aerosmith-Angel…..

*music still running
I turned to look at the “bus” of people (*note that bus is not the appropriate collective term for describing people…..if I am not wrong its company of people….anyway, I used bus because I want to describe the people who are on board the bus). All the same bored, tired and restless face; just from the expressions alone. What they are thinking or really feeling? I do not know. Maybe this….maybe that…..I do not wish to guess or try interpret…..However it lead me to thinking what is the kind life I want to lead…..The so-call “typical” Singaporean life? (now, how do we define that word typical of someone else’s’ life?....i think its bullshit if its has a standard definition). Anyway, I think I know what kind it has to be….Tasogare Surround best describes it…….not totally, but a fraction of it……anyhow, I got to fight to make it work…SC....

It’s not about giving others what they want, but helping them getting it / achieving it. That is if you want to be purely helpful and kind I suppose?

I forgotten…Good Morning~

monday blues will be over in 53mins

evening to all~

Hmm...for those who has been reading my earlier post, you might have noticed that i may have used the word 'abstract' incorrectly, corrected by my friend earlier on...i decided to quickly log in and inform you guys of the correction. due to my ethusiast of sharing and not wanting to pollute my friends of my inaccurate use of vacabulary and the possibility of someone out that picking the words that i have been using.....i had better used some proper english....

While i am writing this new post to correct the word 'abstract' to 'extract'....soon to be vet/doc ming said that i could be right.....#%"$&#$&!!.... well i did check the dictionary actually....or maybe the dictionary is not trustworthy as well.....haha...u guys decide then...which is better...anyway talking to you all makes me feel like talking to cows or walls(to be more civilised).....对牛弹琴 u all know?.......hahah....i am not insulting u all.....don't get me wrong.....its just like so dumb sometimes typing to imaginary/virtual audiences. wondering if you all have any idea of what i am saying... its a so linear type of interaction.....

thats what i feel its so strange about all these blogging phenomenal......

anyway, i was on the bus again today when some thoughts came to my mind unexpectedly. some people say they fear lonliness....i think for me, i fear getting use to loneliness unknowingly....in fact i fear "getting use to alot of things" unknowingly....k...nuff of thoughts....

My mum bought a musical CD!!! frankly...i was shocked.....shocked to see that she bought a CD in the last 25 years? shocked to hear that she went to orchard to look for this disc....shocked to see her taking out the orange gramophone plastic bag....shocked to see the disc she bought....almost the exact songs i have heard daily during my cultural studies and music history modules in school.....yes...classicals from the likes of beethovan, strauss, mozart, tchaikovsky, pachelbel etc.....brilliant indeed.......listening to them now while i am finishing up on the last few lines......hmm...u ever wonder like me?.....wonder how well you understand your folks?.....

alright, goodnight.

monday blues huh....

Morning to all~

Saw this abstract of an interview on channelnewsasia today while on the bus…..
Thought it will be something interesting to share…..

BNP: what is the x-factor that you think differentiate one from the other in career management?

BBM: it has been said before……positive thinking…and passion, being the catalyst.

BNP: how can someone be successful with his career management?

BBM: be the best at what he or she is doing, this is the one way where you can be significant and be noticed.

BNP: erhhh erhhh….(haha, I can’t remember the questions)

BBM: think and act like the boss….not posing as the boss but thinking from your boss’s point of view….

BBM: be willing to take on stretched assignments……(going the extra mile for what you do I think….)

*The above interview was summarized and paraphrased to the best of my “non-photographic memory”….
*BNP – Beautiful News Presenter
BBM – Bespectacled Business Man

ouchhhh......

sensational morning.......when i landed akwardly with the outside of my left leg.....for that spilt second of enjoying my still "workable left foot"......i know wats gonna come right next after would be a very "long forgotten" feel of pain that makes me squashed my eyes shut enjoying that sensation.....it wasn't the pain that was hurting....it was the feeling of my tissues ripping thru' the point of impact beneath my skin that hurts....it was a disgusting and nauseous one...... its like squeezing a sealed up pack of grass jelly so hard that everything burst out.....

so much for my sharing.....now going to recieve more tormentation from my father....sure it will hurt more but it helps.....

Thursday morning, a different morning.....

morning to all~

not so much of a rush today, tried my best to be late......wished i had forgotten something......but all did not happen......damn......

anyway...enjoy your day...

damn.....i washed my left hand.....

rainy morning again....got up early....BAHMMM...BIMM....BWHAMM.....get out of my house with my mum @ 8...forgotten something and had to go back and take it.........late i am going to be......as i sat there waiting for te bus../ listening to this orchestral track on my discman, i looked up and watch the drizzle falling over the the tree top by the road side and the white, blue, orange hdb flat composing 80% of the background.

as long as i could remember, i have not look at this particular tree @ this particular angle for more then 20secs before....i was thinking....maybe its the mellow, slow muisc i was listening to that causes this.....the mood was there....the mood was right for me to enjoy this marvellous morning...appreciating the beautiful greens that the tree has produced........if its some hiphop or rock, i probably would spare no more then half a sec......(u get what i am trying to say here? haha)

Anyway the view was very nice...it was something which in my 20 over years stay there that i had hardly notice......anyway that was only the beginning to to a more wonderful morning......lucky i forgotten my stuff...lucky i did not rush to take a cab....luckily...i was late....it was a pleasant bus ride.....it felt like eternity and i wished i didn't have to alight..... a feeling so familiar 10 years back...it makes me realise that not all things are lost.....

こんばんわ～

hmm....最近、私はが学校と仕事の物なら、とても忙しいです。時間は短いでなりました。選択はたくさんなるよ。。。。どしたもいですよ？

今、ここに幾つか"quotes"分ける。。。

"By the time a man realizes that maybe his father was right, he usually has a son who thinks he's wrong." - Charles Wadsworth

"What we have to learn to do, we learn by doing." - Aristotle

"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment." - Barry LePatner

how will you truly understand 'x' when you don't know what 'y' is. - KH...

*x is a variable and can be replaced by words like "goodness, happiness, ups, pros, etc".
*y is a variable and can be replaced by words like "bad, unhappy, downs, cons, etc" respectively.
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Yest night had a weird dream...... in the middle of the night, feeling adventurous, me and my friends visited this house that is supposed to be vacant. When me and my friends proceeded upstairs to check out the rooms, we were quite shocked to see someone lying on the bed...as we are about to leave, we turned and saw someone looking at us walking down the stairs.......it was extremely dark and what we saw was only a vague figure......we got frantic and wanna get out of the house, opening all the wrong doors send the shiver up our spine more...and when we thought we were all trapped, a golden retriever appear from nowhere and direct us to a whistler up a door frame.....we blew it and....tadaaaa! we awake from our sleep in the midst of a sunny afternoon @ home....

Thinking Opposite

The reasonable man adapts himself to the enviroment.
The unreasonable man adapts the environment to himself.
All progress depends on the unreasonable man.

-George 'something'

It's such good weather todae, gloomy sky and chilling breeze.....lazy to write...will just post some pics.....

got this brochure when i visted singapore recently.

my mammoth parked in my garage.... seldom use it...haven't get the engine for it yet

didn't know it changed so much and so well.....

stacks of stairs (not beautifully taken though..lazy to redo the shoot)

taken from my window 3days ago @8am or so.......

taken from my window again mins earlier....feels like i am in some other part of the world

i am studious too ok, wahahahahah

friends...friends...friends

so many definations for so many people.....had a "not so enjoyable night" yest compared to thursday @ no.5....went there again yest, and the waitress were nice....remembered us a nd greeted us with a warm smile....that sincerity, was the best of the night.......

had the usual booze/drinks and food.....stuff that makes every quarter-life crisis guys like me grow fatter and uglier.....same place...diff storey and almost the same food....quite enjoyable till more and more people joined us......(its not that i am anti-social or anything...its just the crowd probably......i feel they have no idea why they met us and what the hell they are talking about.....its just different interest and things like that may not work on me anymore...) like.....don't laugh when its not funny, don't agree when you had no idea what i am talking about....and don't talk like you know me very well.....it's such kind of feelings that really make me feel sick while looking @ the great pretender sitting opposite me......show some sincerity at least!

maybe i am just babbling nonsense, maybe i am just in a foul mood talking rubbish.....they should really stay at home and accompany their folks.....and i should be at home too...can't really appreciate the "happening" happenings....

anyway, the visit to velvet has no diff from paying so much to visit the zoo.....just that at velvet u keep a look out for girls....and in the zoo u keep a look out for the new species of animal.it was a boring night.....its no longer exciting like before.. the moment i step into a club, i feel like getting out......is that a sign of old age?? a stage where u dun feel u could blend into the crowd anymore.......heck i am just 24+.

thanks for reading till this line........this must have been the most rubbish piece of post i have ever posted...haha there are some points which i can't even come to terms with....just hope everyone be true to yourself and others.

into a vomit - the source

ok...forget about sharing.....just relax in your chair and get bored while reading this........

there could be a ladder i might be able to climb....if its a bluff or taken away.....i will create my own.

ok goodnight folks.....

anyone willing to share?

too many choices, too little time~

not that i am lazy or anything, but just bothered by some uncertainties. but doesn't mean its anything bad.....pros and cons comes hand in hand....just a matter of how i look at it....

had a great weekend? mine was fairly enjoyable stretching from last thurs till the dusk of sunday. thursday-sentosa's "dirt jumping", 20 games of pool@east coast...friday-drinking again..saturday-4hrs of soccer which made me felt like the same old "fitter" kenghow, chill@sgh, watching pathetic england lose.... sunday-filiming in the morning and with kids again@art studio later on.

anyway ming asked to post some pics......don't really know what to post.....wait till i have something better.

anyway, my world cup is over.

Ok, back to my title for the day~~~does anyone has somethin interesting to talk about or share or discuss can drop a comment or something? (not about what you've eaten for breakfast or how you missed the bus, etc)...hmm........Don't be LAZY LAH!............

estoy detrás!

sorry hasn't update in a while..gotten letters of complaint and hate mails already from people whom constantly visit this place....... all my energy was drained in my fight against the 3.5k essay i had to submit 2 days ago. Was doing some cultural thing on graffiti artwork...i thought i didn't like essay writing, but as soon as i got it going, the ride was quite enjoyable.

Painting on an array of connected surfaces (i.e. the corner of a room). Such technique exaggerates the viewing plane by distorting the artwork giving it a 3 dimensional form. and at certain viewpoints, it actually delete the corners of the room. IThe techinical term is known as ‘anamorphic projection’.
-chu

Hmm, done with sharing bits of my research work, now..now i don't know what i should write.....hmm......ok, lets try this one.......yesterday as usual i was playing soccer at amk with my soccer kakis, (don't worry, its not some narration of how i scored beautiful goals or bending the ball like beckham or dazzling the court with my magical skills...) one of team mate (who hasn't gotten my name right) asked for my name as sometimes he wants to make passes to me but i was looking at pretty girls passing by or giving autographs to my "fans"......

Back to reality....ok when he asked me, i had to think for awhile, and he was like puzzled.......i was wondering if i should tell him the hanyupinyin one or the dialect one. Frankly, the only people that call me by the name "genghao" are those from my pri school, my cousins, uncle and aunties. My parents have the priviledge of calling me in a more...erm i would say, warmth tone - "hao ah!"..A low "hao" and a hi "ah"......then i think when we reached some stage in primary school, my form teacher suddenly tell the class one day.."ok class, from today onwards you all have to write your names using the dialect forms"......for a moment i remembered clearly, i was feeling like my real identity is being taken away from me....i don't really feel comfortable with the new 'chong keng how'...It is from then on, we joked about our new dialect names and start identifying ourselves with that not seeing the potential negative effect it will have on us probably psychologically until when we are much older like now(at least for me to a cetain extent).... i was hesitating which one to tell him because i would prefer people to call me "genghao" at most times..genghao definately feels more comfortable and intimate.

this morning i was awaken by a strange dream, i was surprise it would be her in my dreams. it was a pretty saddening dream for it made me feel how some things you are only able to live it once and no more....that nostalgia feeling was strong again when i thought it was fading.....maybe one day it would be gone before we know it.....that is some misery maybe at some point we can't even be aware of........

Weds....in a few days time i would take on a journey whereby my usual self will not be able to handle, i will have to pick myself up from the dump and strive for the better......

time to wake up......sign or omen......

i jumped out of bed, took a superman shower, put on the my paint stained dockers and a checkered shirt, grab a bun and rushed to get a cab.....reason? i over-looked and did not notice i gotta go art studio today.

caught up in a jam.....and i thought its a usual morning jam. but i was wrong, an ambulance light was flickering up ahead and cars were busying filtering to the 2nd lane....i forgot what was on my mind at that instance....but when we come close to the scene, i saw a scrambler bike laying there, then i tried to keep a lookout for the injured. as my cab moves on a grishly image changed my mood for the fast-paced morning i had. the rider was already covered with a white sheet. Images start filling my sudden state of blankness. his friends informing his other friends that he's gone due to an accident...his parents grieving......etc.....what exactly happened i do not know, but a life has been lost......in a moist morning while we wake up and take our breakfast with our family, watched the latest mv on mtv channel, take your dog for a walk in the park, squeezing into the mrt with a crowd of people all heading for the city.......

"he" does not care what plans you have ahead for the day, "he" does not care where you would like to see yourself in 5 years time, "he" does not care that you are going to meet a interesting girl tomorrow, "he" does not care if you wanna be the most successful entrepreneur in future, "he" does not care if u have not spent much time with your family and finally regretted and want to do it the coming week when you are less busy.......once "he" appears in your life.....you will be gone like a speck of dust carrying with u all the memories and experiences u accumulated this lifetime of yours......leaving perhaps lots of people feeling very much upset over their lost, much more than you can ever imagine (ever again)........"somebody" out there, just want you to live life to the fullest while you still can....make it meaningful while you can.....enjoy it while you can.....make every minute counts.......

life is so fragile.
[sorry to write such a gloomy article, it's all part and parcel....we got to face it]

FIGHTO~

There are couple of nice people around you, help make their life merrier and more meaningful.

Wed afternoon, ready to start things afresh finally i hope....

listening to hanson mmmbop, these old tracks are so much better then current hits e.g pussycatdolls-don't cha, etc.....whats on their mind when they made the mv by the way...please enlighten me.


oh yah forget about the 2nd paragragh marked (xxXXXxx) on the previous post...i will write it here.

skipped (not skept which i used wrongly in my earlier post) school this morning again....i woke up punctually but felt tired. yes guilty again for missing school but would felt worse if i don't have sufficient sleep. i used to wake up every morning and look at the clock and quickly count the number of hours i have slept. if lesser than 8, i would try go back to sleep if i can...(for instance, this morning).....sleeping disorder is no joke, it complicates your health and that is one last thing you ever want happening to you. got the number to some specialist, drop me a note if you need some advices.

**Warning-do not read the following article.....it's existence is purely for page extension only*

earlier on, i drove to mount akina for a spin in my hummer h2......slow and steady up the slope. feeling the cool morning breeze on my cheeks and my cigar in my other hand. after having done some exercise and coming downhill....a evo9 delibrately stopped beside me and start revving his engine. then the bugger for some unknown reasons wind down his window and gave me a "thumbs down" hand sign before speeding off negotiating the first bend infront and disappearing into the mountains.....feeling pissed i rammed on my accelerator, breaking through the tranquility of the peaceful dawn and chase after the bugger. with my customised nitroX fittings, i caught up with him in no time(still feeling pissed as that boost cost me $50). i quickly overtook him using the "snakey" techinique and showed him a couple of high speed drifts on the coming bends as a warning to not mess with my hummer. 150km/h drifting round the bends send some rubber smell.......approaching the coming bend, i open my door and looked down my tired as i see them biting rough into the dirt road....even the smoke have made my chrome spinners less glamourous already. i stopped abruptly seeing the the bugger passed me. then i quickly unmount my friend's santa cruz bullit and bash through the woods cutting along the tracks. the adrenaline rush once again set me to paddling faster. the "travel " and the new bomber made me felt like flying through the woods. i finally reach the bottom of the hill in no time and as expected, the bugger was nowhere in sight. i went to the mac, ordered value combo 1 and feast on the junk food. finished my food, washed up the bike and took a short nap......finally the bugger emerged from the woods and looks at me in bewilderment......he couldn't accept his defeat to the bullit, exited his car and took a cab home.........[the above paragraph is based on a true story that might happen in the near future]

talking about the bullit, it belong to a friend of mine whom the rest and me got to know in BT(bukit timah). we were riding and bumped into him with a deflated tire. Being the ever nicest group of people alive in there, we supply him with extra tubes etc....we ended walking out togther eventually. thats how we know him and we continue to go on rides etc.......the menacing bike was repainted to white recently and it looked even cooler....hope the next time, it would be some girl with with a punctured tire.....haha

ok shall go do my report now........

lazy to think of a title at this hour.....

its the time of the night again where i contemplate whether to write or not to write....my heart really wants to but my mind tells me not to...wait a min..or is it the other way round. let you guys know tomorrow..... And ben/zy, if you are reading this.....hope you guys are doing well over there...i think i have a friend workng there as well, andrew seah.....if u see someone always "bioing" girls or flirting around with ang moh chicks...then he's the one....hahah...kidding la...he's a nice fellow la...just not as much as me...wahahaha.

(xxxXXXxXxxXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxxxxxxxxxx
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xxxXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxxxxxxxxxXx)

oh and todae i slept the first half of my class and i felt guilty about it.....better not screw up the "edutainment" presentation tomorrow....ok better pen off now before i regret it later...actually i am already is starting to....

(Xxxxx) - to be filled in tomorrow

lazy to update?

long week it has been, nothing much of the last of whole week to talk about, except some catching up, drinking sessions, and more drinking.

when this particular friend of mine suggest a dinner at his place, it has an underlying meaning of "lets have a drinking session and drink till drop!"..... not a fan of getting all drunk and feeling like a zombie the next day, but i always naively believe that it is a dinner and maybe just few glasses of drinks. that day we end up playing cards, drinking and having some boring forfeit..the same feeling i had from that december "reunion dinner"....playing some rules that is practically set by my friend...shall not go into details, and frankly it bores me. the catching up was nice but the drinking was only so-so(maybe it was the foul smelling vodka).

2days ago, was happy to hear from jarjarbeng that he is going to work with his bro. can't really explain it but i was really glad to hear the news. doesn't matter if it sucks or will be smooth sailing, etc. what important most is what we learn from the process.........and seeing him getting involoved is genuinely a great news~

number 5 was a average place, but the company made the evening great. each time i learn more about them and it felt good....... looking fwd to thursday if it does shine....

it's like 忍一时风平浪静， 退一步海阔天空

On my way home, i begin to pen down these thoughts triggered by an incident which happened earlier. It felt so astonisingly amazing that i want to quickly write it down before i forget about them after my shower and late dinner later.

Soccer/Football; why must it always be from this particular sport where rowdiness and hooliganism knocks on my peaceful door. A rough tackle and follow next comes a heated confrontation. Not going into the details to bore you guys, but how i handled or responded to the situation actually made me felt a better man. Sorry, no kungfu fighting, karate chop, shadow kick whatsoever.....it did affect me slightly but only on the positive side. i felt great for being able to compose myself and allow the game to continue and not dampen the mood.

Although i did not speak much, i hope my silent & minimal retaliation will help make the agressor learn his lessons. I was thinking i should have probably said something to make him realised there is something wrong with his ill-manners. I regret i didn't for he looked kinda gloomy and upset after we all cooled down. In any case, i hope he is so because he is doing some soul-searching and reflecting on his behaviour. If so, it would be a good cause and everything would be worth it.

Oh yah! and to think i actually missed a dinner with some girl for this weekly football game......hmmmm, it's still worth it.........